So I did the math. A 30 year fixed and a 50 year fixed have a monthly payment difference of $1.

What the absolute fuck.

Carrying anything on my face is a terrifying prospect, IDK if it’s an autistic thing but I can’t do many expressions that don’t look obviously forced.

And I do live in a metro of less than 1m, but I believe my range goes up to a metro of > 1m.

The clothes I have now are stylish. But I have no photos in them yet.

But more importantly, I think I’ve just realized I’m really not ready to date, no matter how strong my desire for intimacy is. I’ll be going through some medicine changes and therapy. Maybe I’ll re look at this after.

Honestly? There is one thing that I’m struggling with, and I don’t know if I can intentionally change it. My stim is plucking my beard hairs. So it makes it virtually impossible to grow facial hair anymore.

Meaning I have to be clean shaven, which isnt hard itself, but it can quickly go haywire.

It won’t fix the rest of my appearance. More clothing varieties maybe.

I could bulk up even more. but it would have to be a lot of muscle, and based on what I have currently achieved that might be another year.

Well, at least I lost the weight and built muscle. I have better clothes. I could do with maybe 15lbs lower. I could use more nice outfits.

I don’t exactly have a strong social network, nor anyone who is actually there taking photos when Im out cause that just doesn’t happen I guess.

But there is something there that caught my attention. “Too good to be true.”

I’m wondering if that might be part of the problem? Someone looks up how much my career makes, they’re going to find it’s a lot. 6’? Blue eyes, not fat? Sounds super smart?

Idk. I’m hoping it’s just the shit pictures.

IRC? Like a specific one or just a random one from the early 2000s

Huh. Well. I guess I’m doing everything right then.

Maybe the photos need a lot of work. That will be challenging.

You guys actually get matches?

Goddamn. Here I am in straight world with exactly one match in an entire year that wasn’t a bot.

Eh

Fuck it the apps are scams anyway

Alright thank you.

But I don’t behave like an asshole.

When I am myself, I’ve been told I’m condescending or give off superiority vibes. But I don’t understand that at all.

Every time I am myself I get rejected.

People just don’t like the full me. So I can’t have fun and be myself. I can have fun OR be myself.

terror and enlightenment, now Linux.

As Bhuddism teaches, suffering is the human experience. Acceptance of this is necessary to reach nirvana.

Lmfao you just gave me another shitpost idea.

What? Pfft. I do it all the time.

Twice.

Maybe 3, I can’t remember from past accounts.

I just want to say I’m so happy to have been a part of getting JD Vance recognized as a couch fucker.

I remember the day the original post was made. And to this day there is no evidence JD Vance hasn’t fucked a couch.

I’m an engineer. I literally get paid to be right. Because of this, I give an accurate assessment of my own answer if I am not certain.

The amount of times I am certain of being right is probably countable on a single hand over the past dozen years of my career.

Typically if I have a working solution in front of me or documentation of being correct I will plainly state it. There’s no need to play with words.

“No, in the documentation, it states”

Or “No, I have the solution in front of me this is the process” etc.

That’s bullshit.

If I was completely certain of something, I would say so.

In most scenarios, if I’m wrong, I lacked pieces of information. It doesn’t really matter how strongly I feel I am right if I’m wrong. It certainly doesn’t matter how often I am right, because I could get it wrong.

In particular if there is a chunk of knowledge where I don’t know how much information I am lacking, that’s the worst outcome. I could be so extremely wrong that it requires more time than waiting to confirm whether or I am.

It’s very rude and condescending of management and clients to always be so critical of my “confidence.” It has nothing to do with how “confident” I am in an solution.

I get paid to be right. So I will be right a lot. It isn’t a magical he’s usually right so he’s right this time. If that is what is expected of me, use LLMs.

Edit: It may not be clear, but I have given the “certain” I am right 4 or 5 times over 13 years. It’s RARE. I do not sugarcoat. I don’t have the energy to play social games when time, money, and system availability is at stake.

Yeah ok. Anything to shut the monologue up at this point

What’s a conservative’s favorite ice cream flavor?

Boot.